pony rain (dec 25 + jan 26)


a mark on my arm is left unsigned,
a few on my cheeks, my forehead
and two bruised between my legs.
they don’t carry your name,
but the heat of your breath.

every time we consume each other
and lie within the same borders,
we pin time briefly 
in a tender, damp hold.
it does scare me
how familiar it feels.

sometimes i wonder
if holding without doing 
would undo us.
if i could know it’s you 
if all you did was stay.
we wouldn’t stand a chance
outside the museum spotlight,
both of us without watch.

i stay put in our secret scenarios,
not because i lack the courage,
but because i know their shape.

i don't ask for more, 
but i imagine instead:
with careful hands,
your name written on my skin,
your eyes on my face
as if it were part of the body 
you already learned.

it began in october.
the fall isn’t loyal
—it expires.
and the cold doesn’t hurt
—it only makes room.

///

i’d want to meet you,

see what the fuss is about.

i’d like to prove everyone wrong, but

you laugh like a steering wheel,

drive straight through silence

like it’s nothing.


so i guess it would be

easy to fall for you,

us exchanging looks

from across the room.

i make a dumb gesture

and pretend to tell you:

i wish i was your person.


easy to want to sleep by you.

your skin is soft, your embrace tight.

you warm my hands like a mantis.

seeing your teeth shine in the dark

feels like opening the door

to a secret cabin and finally

you, making sense to me.


it’d be easy to love you,

to hold your cheeks

between warm hands,

to read your chest the way

i read the spine of that book,

with interest, scribbling the edges,

leaving notes to return to.


it’d be easy to care for you:

to water down your liquor

when you’ve had too much,

to lift your eyelids out of the fog

if you didn’t want to cry.

to hold your hand, your manners intact,

to stop you,

with a tender kiss.


but you want a written chapter

in the story of a man.

and i am a growing girl—

a passing train, a glance.

my falls follow a river.

your rain enters the ground.


that’s why

it’d be easy to love you.


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